I'm Sorry {NML}

I owe myself an apology. I am sorry. I really am sorry. ooo ooo For all the times I promised to forgive myself, only to bring it up again later. For clipping the wings of my own dreams before they even had a chance to take flight. For thinking so little of myself at the very moments I should have been standing up for myself. For the lies I swallowed while starving for truth. For believing that all the glass I walked on as a child was ever my fault. soft echos ooo ooo For withholding from myself the same grace and second chances I so freely give others. ooo ooo For allowing the world to convince me that my heart was both too much and not enough. For all the days wasted pretending to be someone I hoped you would accept. For not living my life more on my own terms, simply because I was afraid of making a mistake. For punishing myself for far too long. For believing love was bloody and painful, ooo ooo and that I didn’t deserve better. For every time I looked in the mirror and hated who I saw. ooo ooo For punishing myself for far too long. For believing love was bloody and painful, and that I didn’t deserve better. I could sit here listing every reason and way I was wronged by others, but maybe more than anything, I owe myself an apology for not valuing this one, beautifully precious life of mine enough to know I’m worthy of greatness, the very best of everything. And for that, I am sorry. ooo I am really sorry.