How do I always do this?

[Verse] How do I always do this? Self sabotage I always choose this I can't stop myself Can't be happy Running on empty Makes the world seem so fast and so tempting Pass me by on the side I'm taking my temperature as the heat turns up on my life [Chorus] I'm building me up I'm tearing me down I'm a one man wrecking crew in this town I'm a demolition derby in my insides I'm trekking all over all the time in my mind Foundations Always patient I see the charges as I line them up and blow it up Shout out loud Make the loudest impact I can sound We blow it up when it's going that way We close these doors when we close our eyes and pray We don't see the mess and the rumble Always looking for trouble See me struggle? I see you struggle [Verse] Can't look away Can't even stay We all make it that way one way or another We blow it up like no other My house of cards are blowing down All it takes is a little breath that makes no sound Self sabotage Doesn't even take a thought [Chorus] I'm building me up I'm tearing me down I'm a one man wrecking crew in this town I'm a demolition derby in my insides I'm trekking all over all the time in my mind Foundations Always patient I see the charges as I line them up and blow it up Shout out loud Make the loudest impact I can sound We blow it up when it's going that way We close these doors when we close our eyes and pray We don't see the mess and the rumble Always looking for trouble See me struggle? I see you struggle [Verse] How do I always do this? Self sabotage I always choose this I can't stop myself Can't be happy Running on empty Makes the world seem so fast and so tempting Pass me by on the side I'm taking my temperature as the heat turns up on my life [Chorus] I'm building me up I'm tearing me down I'm a one man wrecking crew in this town I'm a demolition derby in my insides I'm trekking all over all the time in my mind Foundations Always patient I see the charges as I line them up and blow it up Shout out loud Make the loudest impact I can sound We blow it up when it's going that way We close these doors when we close our eyes and pray We don't see the mess and the rumble Always looking for trouble See me struggle? I see you struggle