Lyrics
[INTRO]
Yeah, let me describe it.
Contemplatin' destiny,
Connectin' the ends of a straight line, I forced into existence
Contemplatin' reality,
Connectin' the dots, like a criminal detective, Lost, with no evidence
[VERSE 1]
I'm like a motor, missin' its pistons
Like a body lackin' nutrition
Like an agent with no mission
Like a psychic with no vision
Of the future
Consider my past as a relic of dispute
Unclear how it got to this point
Used to treat every day as a tribute (to life)
Now I'm contemplatin' rollin' a joint
Intimidatin' thoughts, when I remember
How it was
'Cause when I look at the calendar
I get reminded of all that works against me
Been sick a decade too long
[CHORUS]
What if I became the addict I was supposed to be
What if I took the route that was paved for me
What if I would get the help I need
What if I proceed, would I continue to bleed
What if I became the addict I was supposed to be
What if I took the route that was paved for me
What if I would get the help I need
What if I proceed, would I continue to bleed
[BRIDGE]
Would it be any different
Would it ever happen
Would it take form in another event
Would it always be with me to the end
[VERSE 2]
Too stubborn to understand, it wasn't part of my plan
Powered through the pain
Endured more than I could comprehend
Drivin' me insane
So close to gettin' up out of there
To support my mother
But I was closer to death fodder
Happened so quick, but so slow
Thought I only needed some grease for my elbow
Might as well be on death row
Lost connection with people
That couldn't see it from my perspective
Luckily, I look at life as glass half full
Currently, I'm just tryna' improve
Been so many boulders to move
Can't count the amount of lessons learned
Bridges burned, so
My heart is gettin' colder
[CHORUS]
What if I became the addict I was supposed to be
What if I took the route that was paved for me
What if I would get the help I need
What if I proceed, would I continue to bleed
What if I became the addict I was supposed to be
What if I took the route that was paved for me
What if I would get the help I need
What if I proceed, would I continue to bleed
[VERSE 3]
In the silence of night, I confront my fears,
Whispers of doubt echoin' in my ears.
Lost in the maze of my own mind,
Searchin' for answers I can't seem to find.
Every choice I've made, every path I've taken,
Leaves me wonderin' if I was mistaken.
Could I have done more, could I've been better,
Or am I doomed to be a perpetual debtor?
But amidst the chaos, there's a glimmer of hope,
A flicker of light on this slippery slope.
For every stumble, every fall,
I rise again, standin' tall.
I refuse to be defined by my past,
I'll break free from this cycle at last.
With each step forward, I reclaim my fate,
No longer bound by the chains that compel me to contemplate.
So I'll keep movin' forward, one day at a time,
Embracin' the journey, no longer confined.
For in the depths of darkness, I'll find my way,
And emerge stronger, come what may.
[OUTRO]
What if I became the addict I was supposed to be
What if I took the route that was paved for me
What if I would get the help I need
What if I proceed, would I continue to bleed
What if I became the addict I was supposed to be
What if I took the route that was paved for me
What if I would get the help I need
What if I proceed, would I continue to bleed
Never give up
(give up)
[END]
