2004 (Did I Make You Proud?)

[Verse] It's been getting hard to wake up in the morning Cuz everyday I stop and think, "What if today is the end?" Imagine the weight of the world resting on top of your shoulders til you let it all cave in on you Where do I go? Is there someone that knows? Have I lost self-control? Should I even try anymore? Then I start to lose hope In myself even though I don't care anymore Let this wind take my soul [Chorus] And sometimes I wonder "Why did this happen to me?" Because the one thing my heart still can't cope with Is the time I lost being so far away from my family And sometimes I wonder "Why did this happen to me?" Because the one thing my heart still can't cope with Is the time I lost being so far away from my family [Verse] Yeah it's the source of my anxiety Cuz I don't feel right without my family We were busy chasing the American Dream But who the fuck could've known it would be this heavy? Be honest though Did I grow like you hoped? Have I met your expectations Cuz I'm dying to know Because nothing hurts more than watching you go Don't wanna be a face in the crowd I just hope that I made you proud I'm dying to know I feel like I'm shit sometimes so I'm starting to cope Because nothing hurts me more Than watching my parents go Because nothing hurts more than watching my mom and dad go i just wanna make you proud i know sometimes i can be too loud but everything i do is to make you proud so tell me right now, did i make you proud? [Outro] Sometimes I wonder "Why did this happen to me?" Don't wanna be a face in the crowd I just hope that I made you proud