Internal war

**Internal War** **[Verse 1]** Every day is war to me, A struggle to obtain reality. A shower, my makeup, putting on my shoes, It's hard to see the point some days, And no one has a clue. I've been deemed so many things, By those who wouldn't know. High maintenance, a worrier, A girl putting on a show. **[Chorus]** I've been trained to feel unworthy, Ugly and hard to love. The days, they make me tired, But I get by just enough. **[Verse 2]** Sometimes I feel that I'm one mistake From losing all I've suffered for. While every day is a success, I am tired of my war. Every moment is a battle, I fight with all my might. But deep inside I'm fragile, Struggling to see the light. **[Bridge]** In the quiet of the night, I lay awake, Haunted by the fears I can't shake. Whispers in my mind, telling me lies, I wipe the tears that blur my eyes. Friends see the surface, a smile on display, They don't see the storm I face every day. A heart full of scars, a soul that's torn, Living each day, battle-worn. **[Chorus]** I've been trained to feel unworthy, Ugly and hard to love. The days, they make me tired, But I get by just enough. **[Verse 3]** Dreams of peace seem so far away, In this internal war I face every day. Hopes and fears, tangled tight, I keep on fighting through the night. Strength comes in waves, I ride them out, Trying to silence the voice of doubt. Building walls to protect my heart, But they crumble when the shadows start. **[Verse 4]** Memories of pain, they linger on, Reminders of the battles I've won. Yet each victory feels so small, When I'm still facing this endless wall. Loneliness wraps around my mind, In this darkness, I try to find A glimpse of hope, a ray of light, To carry me through another night. **[Chorus]** I've been trained to feel unworthy, Ugly and hard to love. The days, they make me tired, But I get by just enough. **[Outro]** Maybe one day, the sun will shine, Breaking through these clouds of mine. Until then, I'll keep my fight, In this internal war, I'll find my light. Every scar tells a story, Of battles fought and won. In this war within, I'll find my glory, And shine brighter than the sun. Eternal struggle, endless night, In my heart, I'll keep the fight. Internal war, my constant plight, But I'll keep reaching for the light. --- This version adds more verses to deepen the emotional impact and further explore the internal struggles and battles faced.