Why I'm not a Christian

Standing in front of the bathroom mirror Crying my eyes out Who could love me if I couldn't love myself? Chorus They say Jesus loves you What if Jesus didn't come here to die? What if he came to love and was killed for it? What if it wasn't part of some big plan What if humans are just horrible and killed an innocent man? Verse If I was a sinner - then what does that mean In Bible school I was taught my ABC's Told that Jesus loves me But God Hates Sin And if God loved me for who he made me And the thing I did made me Something He hated How could I win? Chorus Unless Jesus came to die for me... But what if He didn't come here to die? What if he came to love and was killed for it? What if it wasn't part of some big plan What if humans are just horrible and killed an innocent man? Bridge If He came to die what were all those sermons for? Why wouldnt they just slaughter a baby as soon as it was born? If Jesus was the sacrificial lamb Lambs are babies Am I crazy? I know they think I am They say Jesus loves you But what if Jesus didn't come to die? What if he came to love and was killed for it? What if it wasn't part of some big plan Am I crazy? I know they think I am I know you think that I am Am I crazy? I know they think I am I know you think that I am Five years ago I would have said I am I can't call myself a Christian anymore If I no longer believe my ABC's Standing in front of the bathroom mirror Crying my eyes out How could God love me if I didn't love myself?