Lyrics
[Intro]
I'm emotionally dumb
I hop on every song bearin' soul, spilling guts
'Cause this the only place that I don't feel like I be judged
If I tell you how I'm feelin' over samples and drums
[verse 1]
Boy, I fuck up everyday hurtin' people that I love
'Cause I can't communicate, it's the way that I came up
I internalize the bad and it's hard for me to trust
I got narcissistic qualities, I hear I'm out of touch
But I'm hella sensitive, I feel it if I'm pennin' it
If I put it out, I only did it for your benefit
I really stay alone to protect you from myself
Used to hide behind the drugs, now I hidе behind my wealth
I said "Later" to my hеart just to focus on the bread
'Cause my baby needed food, clothes, linen on his bed
Woman from my past told me that I'm turnin' cold and it's sad
I used to make her feel like she was home, bring him back
But it's hard though, I was young and dumber with my guard low
Now I'm numb, sendin' big money through Wells Fargo
Y'all the only ones that get the best of me, though
My higher self is on the track and the rest of me low
But I'm workin' on it, no more escapin' when I'm hurtin'
No more self-sabotage, livin' against my purpose
More appreciation for myself when I ain't perfect
Cause i aint perfect
[Verse 2]
You buried me thinking I wouldn't pop up
Three days and three nights later like I was Lazarus
Water me with the drama, I shoulder all of your trauma
That got absolutely nothing to do with me, it's an honor
I know some people wanna put two in me, that ain't new to me
Envy in they eyes, I'm only doing what's true to me
My flow is froze
You ain't getting close with thirty-two degrees of separation
You don't even know my type of dedication
Rock bottom where you find gems hidden in revelations
Looking up at Jah, You couldn't bless me with a better basement
I know how to gеnerate passive dollars for gеnerations
Better than scholars and never resort to degradation
I got these scars from war, these ain't for decoration
Thick skin, moving with love, peace is my destination
Made it with people around me saying, "You'll never make it"
Now they get the point, I don't need to hear the exclamation
I forgive a hater, I tell them to save the explanations
I enjoy the ironic vanity in your demonstrations
I been off the grid with my family seeing shit that you could probably see
If you wasn't fixated on me
I'm on a record, really having these conversations for free
Giving you my hard-earned lessons, knowledge, and grief
