Resign

Smile like you mean it So No one can tell Dwell on all the worries Deep within yourself There are days where I believe That only cowards never ask for help Suffer through their struggles All alone Like there is no one else... Well if that's the case, Then I guess im guilty too Seeing how that sounds the same To what i always do Keep it in and locked away inside Block it out or let it burn Till im desensitized Hold it back Until I can't, Then I just run and hide Pile up the problems In my head Too scared to analyze Who am I? Just another day, another me That I don't recognize Getting sick of looking at myself Through these broken eyes So resigned... Someone strike a match to light a path Out of my darkened mind Someone drop a beat into the hole Inside this heart of mine Someone call up god and cast a prayer To get the sun to shine Cuz standing where I am I swear the storms are crashing all the time Give it time? I gave it time I haven't changed I've looked for signs It's still the same No stars aligned It still remains Internalized Buried deep, Dead alive This isn't something Quite so simply left behind... This isn't something Quite so simply left behind... See, Every time I push into my past It leaves me paralyzed Cuts me up and nullifies The will I have to even try (Why even try?) It gets into my head And taints my thoughts Till I just can't decide... Live or die?