Wishing I Was Better

**[Verse 1]** I'm staring at the ceiling, wishin' I was someone else, Caught in my own feelings, locked in this personal hell. I see the pain I've caused, the scars I’ve left behind, I’m just a broken man, wishin' I could rewind. **[Pre-Chorus]** Every word I spoke, every fight I picked, Regret's a heavy cloak, my heart's been tricked. Toxic thoughts invade, I see the mess I made, I'm drowning in my shame, wish I could make a trade. **[Chorus]** I wish I was better, not this stupid fool, Wish I was stronger, not breakin' every rule. I see the hurt in your eyes, and it breaks me down, Wish I was better, wish I could turn this around. **[Verse 2]** Memories keep hauntin', shadows of my past, A cycle I keep spawnin', wishin' this pain won't last. Toxic in my nature, can't escape this fate, I wanna be the savior, but I just bring more weight. **[Pre-Chorus]** Every tear you shed, every silent scream, Echoes in my head, tearing at the seams. I see the cracks in us, wish I could mend and heal, But I'm stuck in this rust, forgettin' how to feel. **[Chorus]** I wish I was better, not this stupid fool, Wish I was stronger, not breakin' every rule. I see the hurt in your eyes, and it breaks me down, Wish I was better, wish I could turn this around. **[Bridge]** To my friends and family, I’ve let you down too much, Wish I could be the rock, someone you could trust. I'll keep on fighting, though I’m filled with doubt, Hoping that one day, I can figure this out. **[Chorus]** I wish I was better, not this stupid fool, Wish I was stronger, not breakin' every rule. I see the hurt in your eyes, and it breaks me down, Wish I was better, wish I could turn this around. (Outro)