Suffering

(Verse 1) I'm afraid of death, shadows haunt my dreams, Terrified I'll never find the love I need, Caught in a spiral, almost lose control, Trying to change, but it chills my soul. Memories linger, ghosts of my past, Running from mistakes that I know will last, In the mirror, I see a shattered man, Trying to piece together a broken plan. (Pre-Chorus) Every step I take, feels like a fall from grace, Haunted by regrets I can't erase, Mistakes I've made, they echo in my mind, I want to break free, but I'm chained and blind. (Chorus) Can I be forgiven for the lies I've spun? Will I find redemption for the things I've done? In the dark I pray, for a chance to be, Someone who can love, but it’s too dark to see. Can I escape the shadows, find the light? Or will my demons chase me through the night? In this maze of fears, I seek a key, To unlock my heart and set it free. (Verse 2) Sometimes I falter, thinking I’ll collapse, The weight of trying better, feels like a trap, Panic sets in, heart starts to race, What if I don’t deserve this new embrace? Voices whisper, doubts fill my mind, A better future feels so hard to find, Yet I keep on walking, through the pain, Hoping one day, but hope is in vain. (Bridge 1) I wish I could erase the pain I've caused, Turn back time, but the moment's lost, Here I stand, with my broken heart, Dreaming of a fresh, untainted start. In the shadows, I see the light afar, A beacon of hope, but it's just a star, Can I reach it, with these heavy chains? Or will I forever be bound by my shame? (Chorus) Can I be forgiven for the lies I've spun? Will I find redemption for the things I've done? In the dark I pray, for a chance to be, Someone who can love, but it’s too dark to see. Can I escape the shadows, find the light? Or will my demons chase me through the night? In this maze of fears, I seek a key, To unlock my heart and set it free. who can love, but it’s too dark to see. Can I escape the shadows, find the light? Or will my demons chase me through the night? In this maze of fears, I seek a key, To unlock my heart and set it free. (Verse 3) Through the nights of silence, I confront my fears, Wishing for absolution, drowning in my tears, I've hurt and lied, played a twisted game, Now I'm left to face the endless shame. In my dreams, I see a different man, One who’s worthy, but it's just a scam, I reach for him, but he's just a wraith, A vision of hope, lost in the mist of faith. (Bridge 2) I don't want the judgment, but deep down I feel, Maybe I deserve it, for wounds that won't heal, Yet I crave a way out, to leave it behind, Hoping for a future where love is kind. In this labyrinth, I'll lose my way, Step by step, in the dark I’ll stay, For though the path is dark and steep, In my heart, no fire to keep. step in the dark I’ll stay, For though the path is dark and steep, In my heart, no fire to keep. (Chorus) Can I be forgiven for the lies I've spun? Will I find redemption for the things I've done? In the dark I pray, for a chance to be, Someone who can love, but it’s too dark to see. Can I escape the shadows, find the light? Or will my demons chase me through the night? In this maze of fears, I seek a key, To unlock my heart and set it free. (Outro) I keep on fighting, through the doubt and pain, Searching for a way to break these chains, With each new day, a darker night ensues, To be a better man, but I know I'll lose. Can I be forgiven, find my peace? Will my restless soul ever find release? In the silence of my heart, I make this plea, To find love, but there's no hope for me.