My Dreams

[instrumental intro] [dramatic trombone] [cinematic trombone] [distorted trombone] [snapping] My dream isn't children my dreams are my own I want a happy family I want a stable home but I want time in my life to live out my own [drums] does that make me selfish I want a life i can relish when you want a husband to raise and have kids with when i'm not ready to settle down and be a parent? I'm getting up there in age and I want to see my grandchildren-- [break] [build] [bridge] [short instrumental break] should I sacrifice my dreams live with regrets and run away to escape them?-- I know you have children but I love you all the same I just don't know if i'm ready to take that leap I want to be mature enough to handle that burden but I don't know if I am and I don't know if i am worth it I'm getting up there in age and I want to see my grandchildren-- [build] [bridge] [short instrumental break] [intense trombone] [fortissimo] [intense verse] [dramatic verse] [loud verse] [fortissimo] oooooOOOOOOO SHOULD I SACRIFICE MY DREAMS!!! live with regrets and run away to escape them?-- I know you have children but I love you all the same I just don't know if i'm ready to take that leap I want to be mature enough to handle that burden but I don't know if I am and I don't know if i am worth it [intense verse] [aggressive verse] [loud verse] [fortissimo] [yelling] [primal scream] [screaming] [passionate] [chorus] oooooOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!! SHOULD I SACRIFICE MY DREAMS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! live with regrets!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and run away to escape them?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!-- I know you have children!!!!!! but I love you all the same!!!!! I just don't know if i'm ready!!!!! to take that leap!!!! I want to be mature enough to handle that burden but I don't know if I am and I don't know if i am worth it I don't know if I'm worth the wait [break] [build] [short instrumental interlude] [intense verse] [aggressive verse] [loud verse] [fortissimo] [yelling] [primal scream] [screaming] [passionate] [chorus] your children are older!!!!-- So we could have both our dreams if we wait!!!!-- But i know you want another right away!!!! and that scares me!!!!-- Is that your dream??!?!?!?-- To be a parent!!! to be a parent!!! to be a parent!!! ooooooo!!!! I'm not ready for this!!!-- I know I'm not ready for this!!!-- oh god why did I think that I could handle this burden!!!!! I love you and I don't want to leave, but I don't know if I should stay!!!!! [intense verse] [aggressive verse] [loud verse] [fortissimo] [yelling] [primal scream] [screaming] [passionate] [chorus] your children are older!!!!-- So we could have both our dreams if we wait!!!!-- But i know you want another right away!!!! and that scares me!!!!-- Is that your dream??!?!?!?-- To be a parent!!! to be a parent!!! to be a parent!!! ooooooo!!!! I'm not ready for this!!!-- I know I'm not ready for this!!!-- oh god why did I think that I could handle this burden!!!!! I love you and I don't want to leave, but I don't know if I should stay!!!!! I'm not ready for this!!!-- I know I'm not ready for this!!!-- oh god why did I think that I could handle this burden!!!!! I love you and I don't want to leave, but I don't know if I should stay!!!!! I don't want to be a deadbeat I don't want to be a loser but I don't know if I can handle the responsibility of raising a child [intense verse] [aggressive verse] [loud verse] [fortissimo] [yelling] [primal scream] [screaming] [passionate] [chorus] I don't want to make you wait!!! I don't want you to make mistakes!!!! and i'm not that great i don't know how long i'll take are you sure you want to go through with this marriage? I wasn't trying to hold it in so long and lead you along but you should know the truth about my full view of what's in store for our future-- we could travel around save up for a house have a stable life and then have children-- I just want to wait and not make a mistake you know I have anxiety and I have a lot of worry about how things will turn out if we have children and I don't want to run away I don't want to run away and leave you on your own again and then have children-- [percussion break] [bridge] [build] [intense male verse] [aggressive male verse] [loud male verse] [fortissimo] [yelling] [primal scream] [screaming] [passionate] [chorus] I just want to wait and not make a mistake you know I have anxiety and I have a lot of worry about how things will turn out if we have children and I don't want to run away I don't want to run away and leave you on your own again [intense male verse] [aggressive male verse] [loud male verse] [fortissimo] [yelling] [primal scream] [screaming] [passionate] [chorus] I don't want to run away and leave you on your own-- again [slow build][snapping] My dream isn't children my dreams are my own I want a happy family I want a stable home but I want time in my life to live out my own [build] [drums] does that make me selfish I want a life i can relish when you want a husband to raise and have kids with when i'm not ready to settle down and be a parent? I'm getting up there in age and I want to see my grandchildren-- does that make me selfish I want a life i can relish when you want a husband to raise and have kids with when i'm not ready to settle down and be a parent? I'm getting up there in age and I want to see my grandchildren-- [percussion break] [fast build] [intense verse] [aggressive verse] [loud verse] [fortissimo] [yelling] [primal scream] [screaming] [passionate] [chorus] SHOULD I SACRIFICE MY DREAMS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! live with regrets!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and run away to escape them?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!-- I know you have children!!!!!! but I love you all the same!!!!! I just don't know if i'm ready!!!!! to take that leap!!!! I want to be mature enough to handle that burden but I don't know if I am and I don't know if i am worth it I don't know if I'm worth the wait [big finish] I just don't know if i'm ready!!!!! to take that leap!!!! I want to be mature enough to handle that burden but I don't know if I am and I don't know if i am worth it I don't know if I'm worth the wait [long musical interlude] [big finish]